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when everything gets fuzzy and overwhelming:

Don't suffer from questioning about what it is we are actually doing on this earth and how things just 'happen'. Think of this curiosity as a beautiful thing. There are so many pieces to this puzzle that you can find along the way. The bigger picture can be intimidating sometimes. But you can't look at the disassembled puzzle and give up or feel shit because not everything is in the place from the start. You have the time. You can solve these things step by step, truly experiencing every realization that life has to offer. And I feel that what you could find out while solving these things is that there is something more than the mere satisfaction of completion beyond that finish line. Maybe you'll see that there is no such thing as a finish line, there's no such thing as everything being ‘over’. Everything might just be transformed and strangely connected. Don’t attach yourself so much to what you do or do not have. Let it flow. Embrace that flow despite emoti

We are all so unique, yet not at all.

No, we will never be able to completely understand eachother’s thoughts. We are such unique beings, a result of our circumstances and more. Everything we have ever experienced, everything we have ever created has led us to this point. Becoming stagnant is comfortable. It is safe. But I feel like we are on this earth to learn more and explore unexplored territories. There is so much we do not know. Of the world and of each other. There is so much each of us is capable of, on our own and through cooperation. Each person has so much to contribute to, we are all part of one giant body, contributing our strengths and giving our own insights from our analysis of the world and our circumstances. Life is so beautiful. There is ofcourse things that make it seem otherwise in the moment. Things that you may view as bad may occur to you in your life. But the beauty within that, is that this response is so flexible. We humans are able to twist our minds and play around with it through our

observations

I look at my surroundings and wonder why I complain Though this is me today, t hese days have no rain When I’m going through discomfort It’s hard to see clearly My emotions and thoughts, t hey start to deceive me They trick me to think, that I should feel this way No way I say, Could I see light in these days Days when its hard to speak out of love When your feeling the struggle you say ‘you don’t deserve’. But your mind can be just as free, as it is restrictive If you take a step back, feel all the constrictions Observe your mind As it takes over you You’ll see patterns of thoughts that turn those days blue If you just let it all go You’re a blank canvas, all anew.  

Discomfort/Resistance and the past

Looking back on all that I've done, I realise the amount of things that I didnt do because  of fear and discomfort. I have a tendency to stay in my comfort zone because its safe and in this place I would face no humiliation or ‘conflict against my character’. I realized, with opportunities that I’ve been given, how much I have turned it down because ‘it wasn’t me’ or because I had never done it before. This is a result of me completely relying on my past to decide my present actions. Recently I’ve realized that this is all backwards. Why was me not doing something in the past a legitimate reason for me not trying it now? If I always faced problems in this way I will NEVER grow. Because the only way I will grow is through discomfort. I had been completely relying on my circumstances to dictate how much growth will occur in my life, relying on other people’s opinion or what they think I should for how I should act (ALL THE TIME) This type of dependency was rooted in my inse

On being alone and self-growth

Recently my relationship with the word ‘loneliness’ and ‘being alone’ has changed. I’ve always thought of myself pretty comfortable with being by myself, sometimes too comfortable to the point that I’d sometimes get irritated by other people. But I feel like that was a different kind of “loneliness”. In this state of mind, I always thought that I was alone because being with other people would exhaust me. ‘They wouldn’t understand me anyway’ or ‘they only care about themselves, whats the point’. I would attempt to purposefully isolate myself from everyone else because I was ‘too different’ or thought that nobody understood. I guess in a sense that is true. No one is able to understand exactly what you are going through. But this is not a reason to isolate yourself completely from those around you. We as humans can interact and share thoughts in different aspects even if we are unable to completely comprehend how the other one feels. We are all so unique and so different and