mind & heart = spirit

in this space I truly feel like my body is moving before my mind is aware of it as if i am some sort of automatic organism unable to freely control my actions the illusion of free will frightens us more than anything the possibility that all of our actions are not truly ours but of something greater our organisms pushing us towards eachother the law of gravitational attraction being drawn towards eachother a common identity a moving unity of people places and organisms and animals and beings and things its a strong placebo

too busy planning tomorrow can't see straight ahead can't see what I'm doing now time, not something you borrow engagement is key absorption of surrounding presence in the process not jumping from place to place

I read in Cognitive Neuroscience  textbook today that emotion consists of three things: A physiological reaction A behavioral response and a feeling The second one had me a little confused. Sometimes I had experienced emotion and not acted on it. It had not changed my behavior. Recently before going to bed, I have fears of death and feel intense emotion associated with that. But I never acted on it in the moment. I had no reason to act. But in the long run it does change my overall behavior. Though this may be just a subjective experience. When intense negative emotion reflects on to behavior, that is when the problem arises. We will always have these negative experiences. That is reality. But how we deal with them is the control aspect of it.

I'm just so sick of arguing with people It's not a good feeling when you are both yelling at each other to prove a point And to be quite honest, its not worth it I used to gain so much joy from these things Thinking it was discussion and evolving or something Maybe intellectually we were getting somewhere But spiritually, emotionally, it was all degrading Speaking over each other Making the other person feel uncomfortable Experiencing that first hand and realizing that you never ever Want to make the other person feel the way that you did. When things come from the intention of empathy and mutual love, This is when things actually grow Not when you’re creating walls of opinions But when you connect through shared differences And acknowledgement of this diversity This is where true evolution happens