not quite sure what i want from this life anymore i just want to feel those pure emotions so sick of layer upon layer of negativity and doubt and complexity im not quite sure whether i will live the life i want im not even sure what it is that i want i can make up visions and possible dreams, but i dont know how much joy i get out of them because im trying so hard to gain joy from what seems mundane intially thats the thing with mindfulness and presence. you lose sense of ambition and wanting to go elsewhere, completely content with where you are my feet arent quite stable on the ground and my intentions might not always be wise and many many days i feel lost and worried that im not thinking about the future more that my goals arent clear cut following instinct is hard when things take time that leaves time to rethink about the process whether any of this is worth it but the truth is none of this is really real your 'accomplishments' will fade with tim...