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A difficulty in choosing

There's so many things I want to do. That I want to experience. I want to live a life of color and vibrancy. I want to be able to look back on this life and truly say that I experienced it all.

But there's greed to that statement. There's the assumption that tasks and skills are something you can just check off a checklist and be done with. The assumptions that these things don't hold more than just words or stories
to tell.
It's never that way. To do something you want to do requires time and effort. Overcoming difficult emotions and thoughts. Prioritisation, sacrificing immediate pleasures to really put in time into that something.
Because the things we ACTUALLY want to do is because we see value in and treasure the lessons and experiences that task has the potential to give us.
Once I really think about these, I can cross off those things that are merely wishful thinking.

Sometimes its hard. Sometimes I feel like I will never really get to those high-reaching unimaginable things that appear in my vision when i think of a 'dream life'. Sometimes I feel I'd forget all the things on my bucket list.
But it's all about trusting the process and believing that life will take you to all different places, and that things that give you motivation and joy will arise during that path.

Because what would be even more of a waste was if you ignored all those beautiful things to do/ experience that are standing right in front of you
just because you were wishing for a better life.

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