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2020.3.19.1:35AM

This is the unconscious moving before anywhere else
Frontal lobe activity is delayed more than ever
Blurry. Delayed awareness. We move how we want to.

Why do I feel this fear?
Fear of being abandoned
Fear of being left alone: unsupported
From the tribe

To have to prove myself to others

WHAT IS THIS FEELING
instability
all the time

Is this where all humanity lies?
On a tight rope
Between loopy and strict

Too much of anything can be bad
Trust is need
He'd never ask that question
Although he officially disapproves

Cold but burning tears

Something in this human world, that represents the spirit and mind
But to leave an artifact, we need access, a door.
Meditation, Real life, Mind Challenging Things
these allow us to see all sides of ourselves
To feel connected with death and feeling

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