not always too positive

The world is moving so fast, i cant keep up 

Im not sure what to do anymore 

Life gets so overwhelming sometimes 

I often feel like i am suffocating. I cannot breathe 

Always being watched 

Constantly something i have to do 

Trying to pull it together but often falls apart 

Where do we go from here 

What truth am i supposed to see 

So so so lost 

And afraid to admit it 

Shame on top of shame piling up on each other 

The guilt of a bad day 

With only myself to monitor 

Hoping for better days 

But hoping that i stop hoping for better days 

apparently i'm not supposed to feel this way
always the victim
but at the same time i should follow my instincts
the burden of choice
i guess this is the "strength" of a mind
the weak and confused are left behind
Certainty conquers the material world

Being intimidated by the calmness of others

Mind in frantic hurry 

A search for something that’s supposed to exist within me 

Back to the old days 

They are embedded within me 

Constantly following rules 

Being killed by them slowly 

Spiralling out of control 

No love left to give 

Very little in the first place 

These emotions they come and go 

They are waves, i am an ocean 

Trying to reach land 

Never truly fusing 

Not a step forward 

Just slowly tilting in a certain direction

Going around in circles realization after realization
but the foundation never lies

Back there again i guess