visions

I have these visions that I put out into the universe.

'I have so many things I want to do, but I just don't have the time to do it.'

The constant, habitual cycle of putting a vision out there and not following it.
Letting the culture, the 'flow of life', the passive interactions, the instantaneous pleasures get in the way of those visions.

But many of the things I say I want to do, I don't seek those to gain surface-level satisfactions. At least for the most important core-value ones. For these true, genuine goals, I don't say I want to achieve these things for the recognition of the label. I speak out of a genuine curiosity, a want to see what that experience is like. To want to know how it feels. To be able to explore the world and its connections. To gain understanding for my own clarity and for others. To gain some sense of harmony from this clarity-- a constant cycle of acting out of love, for eachother and from eachother. To test the limits of what we know.

I have these visions. To not stick to my word, to not seek out the experience of these visions in this life because of the stupid constructs that I have created inside my head. Now that would be a waste of time.